set me free, leave me be. I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.

Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.
No matter what I say or do I'll still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone.

You hold me without touch.
You keep me without chains.
I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your reign.

[CHORUS:]
Set me free, leave me be. I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me.

You loved me 'cause I'm fragile.
When I thought that I was strong.
But you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is gone.

[CHORUS]

I live here on my knees as I try to make you see that you're everything I think I need here on
The ground.
But you're neither friend nor foe though I can't seem to let you go.
The one thing that I still know is that you're keeping me down

you break my heart...

...and i continue to let you.

why am i so attached to you, like you are attached to her.

im taking a break from you, you don't know it though. you keep calling keep texting and i dont respond. i wonder what you are thinking? i gave you an ultimatum you just didnt realize it. you went back to her, you rejected me, again.

always second best. your mom tells me im your first choice you just don't see it. actions speak louder than words.

"Here we are The broken and used Mistreated, abused Here we are

Here You are The beautiful one Who came like a Son Here You are So we lift up our voices We open our hands To cling to the love That we can’t comprehend Oh, lift up your voices And lift up your heads To sing of the love That has freed us from sin He is the one Who has saved us He is the one Who embraced us He is the one who has come And is coming again He’s the remedy Here we are Here we are Bandaged and bruised Awaiting a cure Here we are Here You are Here You are Our beautiful King Bringing relief Here You are with us He is the one Who has saved us He is the one Who forgave us He is the one who has come And is coming again He’s the remedy"

just not eachother.

"I Loved you first, when we were children.
You broke my heart, all that's forgiven.
We lost our chance to love one another.
Well love again ....... but just not each other."

you still hurt me.

"Everything's closer to the end

but I will get farther from you.

You're eyes are blue but I can't see that color hue

it's been so dang long, God I was wrong

I'm dead to you

you say we are friends but

what is a friend when you see her.

Everything's closer to the end but

I will get farther from you

I was wrong. I was wrong. I was wrong. I was wrong.

Everything's closer to the end but

I will get farther from you"

if i can't have you.

"Hearts break too fast When the sentimental Won't stay, won't last When it's love at first sight So why are my convictions Blinded by your spotlight Can't breathe, can't sleep I'll kiss goodbye to my reservations I know there's other fish out in the sea Not for me I want you"

even now.

"How long should I wait before I let you go

How long should I decide

Know that i love you

even still even now

even though we fell apart

even still even now and I hope well meet again"

should i cut my loses now.

should i break free while i have the chance. errr, did i ever get a chance?

....no

im drawn to you.

"call the surgeon, mend the pieces."

done and did.

im trying this new thing where i don't let my emotions run my life.

i'm miserable.

why do i try so hard? why do i care so much? all for nothing. All to be rejected again.

why do i do this to myself? why? why can t i push him away.

i was doing fine, i was i didn't ask him to come back in my life. i didn't ask for the feelings to come rushing back. i feel like i should go back and read my old journal posts. maybe then i will see the hearbreak that im headed for.

for now i'm shutting down. laying low and not giving in, for now.

im not ready.

so this week has gone by so fast.

kelly was amazing, i wish i could see her in concert every night. if only...

finals next week. blargh.

however, i'm super excited for next semester, i'll be taking intro to new testament! should be swell.

life is hard, man.

sometimes i want to crawl in a whole and not come out.

i think thats going to happen soon.

im not happy anymore. im blue.

i help him so much and its like im invisable.

he loves her not me. its sick. its sad. its life.

i should just move on.

i wish i could save you.

its going to be alright.

all i ever wanted was you.

heartbreak warfare

no one ever wins.

why must i want what i can't have?

i really need to decipher my feelings and be honest with him, its not fair esp. with all he is going through the last thing he needs is me.

on a happy note, im going to see kelly clarkson tonight!