to be blunt.

Recently I have been thinking about JH. Recently i have begun to wonder if i did the right thing. (which is just me over thinking things) Or if i walked away to soon. If i had wanted to fix it, if i had continued to pour love into our relationship -would that had been the key? When you love someone do you just give up? Do you just give up on them on your relationship? I don't always have the answers. But now i have to live with the pain.

Some days i get angry, frustrated. But every day i must picture how much Jesus has done for me and remember I am a recipient of His grace. And as i come to understand this, and perhaps mroe importantly, FEEL this, I will be more and more able to extend that kind of grace to others, including JH.

Offering him grace will take some doing, some time, something Holy. It will take all of these things, because he doesn't deserve it, and that is exactly the point.


I want to know why God put him in my life.