the five stages.

1-Denial-"this can't be happening to me", No crying. Not moving forward with your life. staying the same. Or not even acknowledging the loss. past it....

2-Anger-"why me?", feelings of wanting to fight back or get even with them or blaming the other person. past that.....

3-Bargaining-bargaining often takes place before the loss. Attempting to make deals with them or attempting to make deals with God to stop or change the loss. Begging, wishing, praying for them to come back. past that....

4-Depression-overwhelming feelings of hopelessness, frustration, bitterness, self pity, mourning loss of person as well as the hopes, dreams and plans for the future. Feeling lack of control, feeling numb. currently in this stage....

5-Acceptance-there is a difference between resignation and acceptance. You have to accept the loss, not just try to bear it quietly. Realization that it takes two to make or break a marriage. Realization that the person is gone (in death) that it is not their fault, they didn't leave you on purpose. (even in cases of suicide, often the deceased person, was not in their right frame of mind) Finding the good that can come out of the pain of loss, finding comfort and healing. Our goals turn toward personal growth. Stay with fond memories of the person.

Tonight I plan to pray for acceptance. feel like some days I am there, but other days I'm still depressed. I know im stronger than that tho. So tonight as I do my bible study and pray I will be praying for acceptance.