Don't you hate it when things don't go as YOU plan?

i do. but you know what makes me feel better. Knowing i have a father who has an even better plan for me. no one wants to be lonely. it's an awful feeling.

things that have been troubling me.

1.) i lost my best friend last month. i miss him. i miss sharing stories, and laughing, and bike rides, and just being comfortable with him. i love him deeply. i have a big void in my heart with him gone. Each new day God gives me, i feel stronger, but some days i feel completely helpless. alone. angry. sad. i know what happened was for the better, but some days i find it hard to see the better.

2.) drama/gossip/BS. there has been a lot going on lately. i wish i could wipe the slate clean. let tomorrow be a new day, with happiness and smiles. cause he really wants to live with drama? the problem with having a group of friends is there is alwayts someone talking, in a negative way. if it doesn'e help anyone, or build them up, then why share it. i must admit i am guilty of this as well. but i really want to work on it.

thats all for tonight kiddies.

DL