He is strongest on my weak days.

it sucks waking up thinking about someone. someone who isn't there. 

heart break sucks, big time.

its nice going to God though. i pray that instead of waking up thinking about him, i would wake up with a fat smile praising God! thats what i want. realllllllly bad.

it happens most days. but those other days hurt, i suppose that is just another way to go to God. To seek Him. This whole situation sure has drawn me nearer to Him. the worst situation (to me) is the best for Him, and that is all that matters. 

last night made me feel guilty. i need to make my escape again. its too much. he is too much.