rant

I'm really tired of people. People and there antics. People who don't care. People who have no morals. People who are not loving. Just plain sick of it. I want to meet some real people. I hope they are out there.

Instead of a show.

I hate all your show and pretense
the hypocrisy of your praise
the hypocrisy of your festivals
I hate all your show

Away with your noisy worship
Away with your noisy hymns
I stop up my ears when your
singing ‘em
I hate all your show

Instead let there be a flood
of justice
An endless procession of righteous
living, living
Instead let there be a flood
of justice
Instead of a show

your eyes are closed when you’re praying
you sing right along with the band
you shine up your shoes for services
but there’s blood on your hands

you turned your back on the homeless
and the ones that don’t fit in your plans
quit playing religion games
there’s blood on your hands

Ah! let’s argue this out
if your sins are blood red
let’s argue this out
you’ll be white as the clouds
let’s argue this out
quit fooling around

give love to the ones who can’t love at all
give hope to the ones who got no hope at all
stand up for the ones who can’t stand up at all
instead of a show
I hate all your show

Instead of a show -- Jon Foreman

my summer so far...

has been nice.

its so darn hot.

job searching is probably the worst thing in the world. seriously.

God is teaching me patience on a myriad of things. but i kinda needed it. for so long i have been such an impatient person.

when you least expect it people surprise you.
good and bad.

tonight was a god surprise.
makes me nervous.
Lord, guide me through my next steps. Show me your clear path for the situation..

Belief

Word of the week!

How do you please God? First and foremost, you please him by believing that what he says is true. You become a child of God through belief. God makes his promises real in your life through belief. But what if you only believe a little bit, or what if you're troubled by doubt? How much belief does it take for God to work in your life?

"Belief is not mainly an agreement with facts in the head; it is mainly an appetite in the heart which fastens on Jesus for satisfaction." John Piper

like Rory Gilmore

im a relationship girl.
but i think i have become "dating girl."
i don't even know what that means.

heres to an exciting night tonight!

simple as it should be

sometimes when you least expect it. things you once thought mattered don't matter anymore. you start to live simply and appreciate the blessings you HAVE instead of what your lacking. its a better way to live. im blessed beyond measure.

shattered

Broadest road that i can travel
i am drawn by what i see
spirit living deep inside me
is fighting to be free

i'm a homeless man who's trying
(and i do not have a home yet)
find a place to lay his head
find some comfort in this journey
(just another taste of pleasure)
at least before i'm dead

there she is inside, waiting on another
chance to make it right
there she waits until, her brokenness can brake her
and finally be still

and these sidewalks speak of demons
(there are demons all around me)
they are stepping on my toes
and my head just spins in circles
(i can't even stop this movement)
round and round it goes

and i've got so many pipers
(and i think i hear my song now)
leading me right to my death
i'm a slave to my indifference
(and i'm comfortable in chains now)
i'm a corpse with borrowed breath

there she is inside, waiting on another
chance to make it right
there she waits until, her brokenness can brake her
and finally be still

now i have to be a grown up

beauty.

your word for the week, everyone!

When you think something is beautiful you gaze at it. You can't help it. You don't yawn and look away. Why do human beings crave beauty? What is that vague longing you feel when you see a majestic mountain range or hear a beautiful piece of music? Maybe its a homing instinct. When you get a glimpse of beauty, of excellence, you feel in you bones that you were made for something better. At some level, the longing for beauty is a longing for God.

"He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end." - Eccl. 3:11